All perfect praise be to Allaah, The Lord of the Worlds. I testify that there is none worthy of worship except Allaah, and that Muhammad, sallallaahu ‘alayhi wa sallam, is His slave and Messenger.
All these actions that you mentioned, like hating this Waswaas (devilish whispering), trying to repel it and searching for an explanation, indicate that you are quite far from Kufr (disbelief), as we have already mentioned in Fatwa 174507.
The best way to treat such Waswaas is to completely neglect it, in addition to other matters which we clarified in Fatwa 199253.
Asking the scholars in order to get rid of the doubts that you find in your heart is a good thing, and is even Islamically required; Allaah says (what means): {So ask the people of the message if you do not know.} [Quran 16:43] This is general for all kinds of issues.
Finally, a Muslim who does not have deep knowledge of religion must not subject himself to the doubts that the enemies of Islam raise in order to make the Muslims doubt their religion and to make them fall into the traps of disbelief and atheism; Allaah says (what means): {And thus We have made for every prophet an enemy – devils from mankind and jinn, inspiring to one another decorative speech in delusion. But if your Lord had willed, they would not have done it, so leave them and that which they invent.}[Quran 6:112] Allaah also says (what means): {And indeed do the devils inspire their allies [among men] to dispute with you. And if you were to obey them, indeed, you would be associators [of others with Him]} [Quran 6:121]
Allaah Knows best.